Chronicles of a Recovering Fat Girl

Yes, it has been over a year since my last blog post. Yes, I realize that only like 5 people have ever read my blog. And yes, I understand probably no one cares what I have to say. But. If by some crazy miracle, someone does read this blog and gets a little something out of it, then me typing this out will be worth it. If I feel motivated to continue my journey, then typing this will be worth it. So, what has happened in my life in the past year? Well, we adopted a dog, got married, I dislocated my patella again, and I gained back half of the weight it took me almost 2 years to lose. I feel like a total and complete failure. I got down to my lowest weight in years 200 lbs. I felt like I looked great, I felt amazing, and had so much energy. But then I got complacent, I stopped exercising as much, I started eating poorly again, and before I realized it, in less than a year, I was back up to 225 lbs. I feel like crap, I'm bloated, my clothes are too tight, I'm lazy and winded....

I know it's been a while since my last blog post, mainly because I haven't felt like I have much to blog about. The first half of the year has been a challenge to say the least. Life in corporate America is a struggle, planning a wedding is stressful, and did I mention I bought my first house? Like many of us, when life piles on the stress, I got away from my healthy habits and didn't lose any weight for 4-5 months. Luckily, I kept up with some of my healthy eating habits, like smaller portions and lighter versions of my favorite foods. About 2 months ago, I found my gym buddy and got back into the habit of exercising 4 times a week. I cannot express how much I dread that first 10 mins of my workout. But, after that, when my blood starts pumping, it's like I sweat away all of my troubles. The feeling after a workout makes me feel so accomplished. Anytime I have a bad day at work, I get some good cardio time in and I feel in control of my destiny, and feel like I'v...